I have found that as I have grown older I have become more of a geek than I was in high school, and that’s saying something. I say the term geek with much fondness as I have no problem with being known as such. In my first year of college a girl I hardly spoke to in my class told me I was weird. I said thank you, smiled at her happily and trotted out the door, giggling at her astounded expression as she gaped like a fish. I’ve always been a little different and when looking at all the labels that modern society has I’ve never truly fit in with one definition. That’s fine for me as why would I really was to be a carbon copy of other females? I’m now in my twenties and still watch Winx Club which was my first fandom along with Downtown Abbey. I fangirl hard and incorporate the things I love the most into my Spiritual Life. As we enter September we begin to look inside ourselves as the Earth goes into hibernate mode. (Seriously, have you ever read a good book or watched an amazing film that doesn’t make you question your existence?)
The one thing I desperately wanted to be when I grew up was someone like Glynda off RWBY. That woman has her s**t pulled together and literally makes me want to be her and date her at the same time. Now that I’m out of school and looking around the big wide world I’m bombarded with what I should want out of life. Tons of money, a well paid job and some guy who is stereotypical gorgeous and clearly doesn’t exist….. Unless your Harry Styles, then your kindness is amazingly more attractive than your amazingly good looks. All I really want from life is to be happy, and yeah, sure, money helps but it’s not the end of the world.
All I want is to be happy, or as happy as I can be….. Maybe a little more patient to. Which is something I’m totally trying to work on. Being a geek and doing things like rewatching an anime for the tenth time or re-reading that book I have loved since forever makes me happy. As does finding new things to watch and read, and trying to veiw things from different angles. Like how would Luna Lovegood view my life right now? Or if I was Albus Dumbledoor (female, with a lot less beard) what would I be like? My mind goes into overdrive mode and I can barely wrap my head around it all. It’s so much fun. The things though that society wants you to have dreams and goals that make those at the top of society generally more famous and rich. Which we do, but I want to look at who I have been and see how far I have come and then reevaluate my goals. I have always wanted cat ears and a tail, I can’t have them, unless it’s Halloween, but I can be a little more graceful. (On a good day I’m lucky if I don’t fall over more than five times). I won’t deny a part of myself because it’s socially unacceptable. ‘Cause I simply don’t care.
So I challenge you this Autumn to look within and realise your dreams that you dream and be yourself. No one can be as good as you as you are!
Do some spider diagrams, write it out or look around your room and home and let that be your inspiration. Let what you love drive your life.
Brightest Of Blessings!